Ever since my last melt down post about my Mom passing away I’ve been trying to figure out how to write a post about her that would make her proud. One to let those of you who don’t know her have a glimpse of her at her best and have a small idea of what she meant to me. I’m no writer though and words fail to express what I have in my heart so instead I’m going to share the wonderful slide show that my husband made of her life. Enjoy
I miss you!
There are a lot of things in life that are unexpected, and usually I’m pretty good at dealing with the unexpected in life, but I’m not doing such a good job this time. A month ago today I lost my Mom unexpectedly. It is so strange to write that because it still doesn’t seem real. Ever since then time has been in this strange and unusual state of flux for me. Minutes seem like hours, but then days fly by and while everything is whizzing by me I feel like I’m stuck at a standstill trying to figure out what to do and how to adjust to this new reality. Don’t get me wrong and think that I am sitting around doing nothing, because that just isn’t possible when you have kids, but I am pretty much just going through the motions. I don’t know how to get unstuck. Every time I think I’m getting used to the idea that she is gone I see something or hear something that reminds me of her and it boggles my mind that I won’t be able to see, do, hear that thing with her ever again in this life. Then its back to square one missing her and wishing she was with me or I could call her and hear her voice. This is harder than I could have ever imagined it would be. I love you, Mom!
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